Monday, December 17, 2018

I Goofed Up

Comparison is something that has been on my mind this week.  I was driving back home after dropping off Ash and Bat at the middle school.  I was thinking about the last year or so.

I have a tendency to compare.  We live in a time when comparison is so easy to do because of social media. Of an evening I lay in bed and scroll through instagram. I see friends having amazing experiences. Eating beautiful food. Going to exciting places or sometimes just sitting around their immaculate home reading and I think “wow, they have it so together”.
Why isn’t my house that clean, my family that loving, my bookshelves that filled? Why doesn’t my morning coffee at home come on a gold rimmed saucer with a beautiful design in t cream on the top?

Comparison in life is dangerous. The Bible warns of comparison…

Not that we dare to classify or compare ourselves with some of those who are commending themselves. But when they measure themselves by one another and compare themselves with one another, they are without understanding.

Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.

I always think of this when it comes to coveting something someone else has.  It wasn’t until this week that I realized how I do it in relation to my Christian Life.
I can really comedown on myself because of it.  
I love to write these blogs, its one of my favorite things to do.
In 2018 someone told me I was not good at it and maybe I do it for the wrong reason.  
I stopped writing for months because of this.
The reason I stopped is because I compared my spiritual life to theirs.  I thought they were more connected to God because of who they were.  It wasn’t until I discovered their shadow side that I realized they are not better than me by any means.  Even in that though I fell into comparison. I went from thinking they were better to thinking they weren’t, maybe even a little lower now.
I couldn’t stop.

We assume because of a title or because someone posts pics of them reading the Bible or a quote post from youversion that they have a better relationship with God so they must know more.

That could not be further from the truth.

I think we’ve seen through the fall of pastors be they mega church pastors or hometown pastors that they are just people.

We all have our issues we are all far from God without a way to get close to Him apart from Jesus. We have a tendency to put them on a pedestal.

Once you accept Jesus you are all on the same level.  

I’m not saying that someone won’t have rewards in heaven that someone else does or even blessing here on earth but Jesus puts us all on the board equal.

You have the same access as I and I have the same access as Joel Osteen.

If you have a question like I did, or someone questions  your motives the Bible has a simple answers.

You don’t have to take their word for it. Seek wise counsel (Proverbs 12:15) and most importantly bring it to God (Php 4:6)

I was told by someone one thing and I just believed it, I didn’t seek others opinions I didn’t seek wise counsel I just quit.

What I discovered doing just that is that it was only one person’s opinion that I wasn’t good at it. That I wasn’t helping anyone but myself.
Other people I trust told me different.
Even more importantly I talked to God about it and searched my motivation and found no issues in that respect.

I regret the time I wasted not sharing with you all the things I was learning and the things God was saying to me.

With all that said, remember you are a child of God. If you believe in Jesus you are all set. There are great things you can do and there are things you should probably do but Jesus is enough.

Grace evens the playing field.

Thanks for Reading



  1. Keep doing. I am sorry someone cut you down. Sometimes, doing things for you (whether or not you are good at it) is the best way to be. It doesn't make you selfish any more than me eating this slice of chocolate cake I am eyeballing. I don't NEED it. Maybe I don't have the best form when eating it. But, guess what? It's good and it isn't hurting anyone. Someone telling you otherwise probably has a negative motive.