Three months ago on Feb 13th my life was changed forever.
We've talked about this so no need to recap.
Now I find myself 3 months later and I am worried that my actions are not following my spirit like they should.
I greet every Sunday at church both services. It is without a doubt my absolute favorite part of the week.
I want to do more but, I'm not sure what. I tried teaching the 5th and 6th graders. I didn't really enjoy it. I felt a little uncomfortable and it was interesting with my greeting which I love so I asked to be taken off the schedule.
Now I wonder if that wasn't a mistake. for 2 reasons actually.
1) They need the help for sure. The people that do all the teaching are spread pretty thin and I can physically do the job.
2) It put me outside my comfort zone. That was my big issue, i din't feel comfortable so I didn't think I was doing that good of a job.
Out of our comfort zone though is where God wants us.
I was all gung ho to help wherever they needed me then when I didn't like it I stopped. Maybe I need to talk to Bridget.
Then there was the Wednesday morning prayer meeting. I stopped going because it was killing my productivity. I couldn't stay up late and work on Tuesdays because I had to get up so early. Then after the meeting I would be jazzed for about an hour and a half to two hours then I crashed and I'd sleep my Wednesday afternoon away and then go to church that night so I was getting zero work done then.
So now its just Sunday and Wednesdays I don't feel like I'm doing much for the church. I want to do
more, I'm just not sure where I belong.
I'm not keeping up with my blog properly. I have been wanting to post one about following our leaders but just haven't yet.
It's frustrating. I want to help out anywhere I can then I get the chance and I turn it down. As you can see I'm really conflicted about this 5th and 6th grade thing.
I don't want the fire to go out but I don't feel I'm giving it enough work fuel. Plus I want to be a better example to others.
Ugh, can't stop thinking about this and I have work I should be doing here at the house.
Thanks for reading
or Brother Whiskers depending on how you know me.